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well, today (well, yesterday lol) was interesting. i talked to my two older sisters and im reassured for my up and coming year. its going to be... AMAZING!!!! im gonna focus in school, im gonna focus more on fixing myself too. i have ALOT to fix. i have already tackled one of the BIGGEST obstacles for the year and its (hopefully) gonna get much easier now. looking back on this summer (and freshman year), i have changed ALOT over this past year. i have changed my outlook on life (its not as bad) and i have changed my view of people in general. i have to thank a couple people... kathleen and erin... for helping me with somethings this summer. i love you guys!!!!!
well, bed is calling. mediatation too. catch you guys on the flip side!
<3 always
danielle
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well, i was talking to my best friend and we started to discuss music. he mentioned this song and i read the lyrics. i decided to put this into a blog because i found it has meanin, it describes someone i know and cared about.... here it goes...
Everybody's Fool
Perfect by nature
icons of self indulgence
just what we all need
more lies about a world that
never was and never will be
have you no shame don't you see me
you know you've got everybody fooled
look here she comes now
bow down and stare in wonder
oh how we love you
no flaws when you're pretending
but now i know she
never was and never will be
you don't know how you've betrayed me
and somehow you've got everybody fooled
without the mask where will you hide
can't find yourself lost in your lie
i know the truth now
i know who you are
and i don't love you anymore
it never was and never will be
you're not real and you can't save me
somehow now you're everybody's fool
hope you liked it... it was MADE for you. you should listen to it sometime <3
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[26 Jul 2006|10:07pm] |
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well... how you doing lj?
lets see... today isnt the best. i found out this one guy i used to like (or more... i really dont know anymore) was nothing but a liar and an asshole to one of the best people a girl could possibly know. i love this girl with all my heart, and i cant believe someone would treat her that way. i cant believe i actually believed him too. he seemed so nice... so charming... so loving... so kind, but in reality... he just manipulates people. he tricks them into believing that he's your prince charming and that we loves you, but in reality, he just doesnt. he lies and lies and LIES till you give him what he wants... then ... POOF! you're done! washed up feeling empty and sad and upset because you thought that you were in love. i have only truely loved one person, and he left me to die in the pouring rain too. i dont understand what guys hate soooooo mcuch about me. i have liked soooooo amny guys this year... and sooner or later, i ended up playing second fiddle to some other girl who was either prettier or smarter or just plain better than me. i cant win. but this time... i have won. i have beaten the manipulator at last! i have beaten him at his own game. and he will never win again... ever.
today was band camp. my big sis and my big bro came to camp today. but, alas, my friend didnt come today... maybe she'll come tomorrow.
well, now that i have vented... ill go to bed, but meditate first. good night. </3
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[23 Jul 2006|12:39am] |
well, this is my second post... wow. alright. here it goes...
I have fallen for this guy. he is beyond amazing. he is the best. cant stop thinking about him. but sadly, i have the feeling, that what i want will never happen. simply because its my luck for things of this matter not to work out. and yes... i have dated this guy in the past, and no. he doesnt want me back. its like im never good enough. like, no matter how hard i may try... ill never be up to par. he would rather have better than me, who could blame him?! im not much a catch. im not that pretty, or smart, or funny. im just... me. the second fiddle girl who will never get to be loved or cared about. oh well, i guess i should be used to this feeling by now... whatever...
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[14 Jun 2006|06:48pm] |
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well, today was... interesting to say the least. im taking summer school with the guy i have liked for about a year and i really do care about him. more than anyone could ever know. i would do anything to be his girlfriend again. thats right... i said again. we were together for about three months. he was my first high school boyfriend... my first kiss... my everything... my world. i will never understand why everyone i care for romantically leaves me nehind like some old, used up tissue... "one use then THROW HER AWAY!" i care so much for mikael, and he said he cared about me. i just dont understand, what about me, that repulses him so much. we had planned to be "friends with benefits". little did i know that even before anything of that nature would happen it would be over. gone... just like that. in the blink of an eye.
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